Monday, March 23, 2015


My guardian angel. My kindness. My goodness. My soul. I don´t know what to call it. I think you all know that voice inside your head that tells you you´re not good enough, that tells you could have done better. That voice that judges you. We are all human, we make mistakes, we are not perfect. Nobody is. Now I want to make my other voice stronger, the voice that tells me it´s O.K. the voice that reminds me that everybody makes mistakes, the voice that helps me to learn from my mistakes without judging me. The voice that loves me unconditionally. I want to make that voice my best friend. That´s the voice I want to listen to through out my life. My project was to visualize this inner voice. I ended up with this drawing. It reminds me of my sister, my better self, an angel, a figurine of love and a painting a friend gave me. "Be kind to can you be happy if there is someone always mean to you." Feelings don´t change overnight, we have to work at it everyday. Remind ourselves to be grateful for what we have.

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Happy new year

This year I will make it happen, this year I will change, I´ve had the same goals for too long, I need to make them happen so I can move on with my life. Next year I want to set new goals. Lil sis, you know I´m going to need your support. Please let this be my happy new year.

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

My clouds

When I visited my sister last summer she gave me a great idea. The thing is that I have a diary where I write all the things I want to do and need to do. I love this diary. The only thing that annoyed me sometimes was that the list seemed endless and after each day I crossed over all the things I didn´t do and also the things I did do. Now I have a new system, if I actually manage to do something on the list I draw a cloud around the word. So now I can proudly flip through the pages and look at everything I have accomplished despite my busy life. This month my clouds are so far:

  • organized the living room
  • baked cookies for Christmas
  • written and sent all my Christmas cards
  • exercised
  • organized the living room
  • visited a friend
  • had a relaxing bath
  • spent time with my little boy
  • bought and wrapped all the presents for Christmas
  • blogged
  • finished painting my chalkboard door
  • organized the closet with outdoor clothing

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

A new family favorite

100gr butter
250gr dates
2tbs brown sugar
100g rice crispies
200gr chocolate

Heat butter, dates and brown sugar in a pot until butter is melted. It's good to put the mix in a food processor but not necessary. Stir in the rice crispies and put in a container of your choice. The layer should be about 2-3 cm thick. Spread over melted chocolate and keep in the fridge for at least 2 hours before serving in bite size chunks.

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Happy birthday!

Today is my oldest daughter birthday. 10 years ago she came into my life and everything changed forever. Today we had a special day together. She loves her birthday ritual, an early morning breakfast with the family and a present...before everyone is off to work or school. I hurried home so I could take her shopping and after that a dinner at a restaurant of her choice with the whole family. She is so much like me, I can see my flaws in her as well as my good sides. I am still her biggest role model and favorite person in the whole world. I guess that will change very soon and I will become embarrassing and annoying.... for a while. I wish her happiness, I wish her a beautiful life, I wish her love. At the same time I feel so powerless because in reality I have very little to say about how her life will turn out, all I can do is try to show her love, be a good person to look up to and build up her self-confidence in hope that she will make the best choices she can in the future. Today was her special day, my task was to make her feel loved and special but my humble words and actions didn´t cover it at all. P.s Of course I feel just the same about my two other children.

Sunday, November 16, 2014

The biggest challenge...52 ways to be a better me

  1. Drink more water
  2. Avoid sugar
  3. Eat whole foods
  4. Walk
  5. Dance
  6. Exercise
  7. Yoga
  8. Contemplate
  9. Clear my mind
  10. Organize
  11. Relax
  12. Sleep
  13. Do the things I love
  14. Laugh
  15. Give
  16. Care
  17. Clean
  18. Forgive
  19. Create
  20. Write
  21. Share
  22. Plan
  23. Love
  24. Notice
  25. Listen
  26. Sing
  27. Read
  28. Dream
  29. Do
  30. Be mindful
  31. Be grateful
  32. Be graceful
  33. Think
  34. Slow down
  35. De-clutter
  36. Simplify
  37. Smile
  38. Open up
  39. Drink tea
  40. Be me
  41. Hug
  42. Kiss
  43. Hold
  44. Enjoy
  45. Practice
  46. Learn
  47. Grow
  48. Take care
  49. Make memories
  50. Be kind
  51. Speak softly
  52. Review

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

The day I was born

A painting by my dad

My dad stopped painting the day I was born (maybe an overly dramatic statement). I´s hard being creative with children in your life. Some people manage combining the two and some even can turn their creativity into cash. I wish my future to be filled with creativity, beauty and happiness.

Sunday, October 26, 2014

Dreaming of .......a balanced life

I´ve been thinking hard about how I can get some balance in my life. I´m working 6 - 7 hours a day and I miss that extra time I used to have. I need time to go out for a walk, I need time to exercise, I need time and energy to eat healthy, I need time to take care of myself, I need time to do the things I love, I need time for me. So what to do? Maybe I can find a job with less hour, a job closer to home, maybe I can pay someone to clean my house, maybe I can pay someone to look after my children, maybe I can simplify my routine or life in some way. Whatever I do I need to make a change!

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

September - a new weight loss plan

Here I go again. Swimming against the stream. How I wish my lil sis was here to support me in this never ending battle. Ok, my new plan consist of three elements:

Morning walk: Every weekday morning I´ll take the dog out for an half an hour walk. I´ve been doing this for some time now and I find it more for the mind than the body. Waking up early, getting fresh air, alone with my thoughts. It will be more challenging as it gets colder and darker but I think my responsibility to the dog will keep me going.

Exercise: My husband has agreed to take care of the dishes after dinner so I can go to the gym. Who am I kidding the kids don´t need me at this time, they will be watching TV anyway - I´ll be back for the bed-time story. Mondays I´ll do zumba - this is kind of a dance class - good exercise and a great way to step out of my comfort zone and loosen up a little bit. Tuesdays I´ll do yoga - I wish I was great at yoga but I´m stiff like a log, the only way to get better is practice. Right? Wednesday I´ll do weights - this is the only thing I´m actually good at. Thursdays I´ll to Tabata - a class with good all kinds of exercises, repeated often with small breaks in between. Saturdays I´ll go swimming with the family, few laps and sauna. And Sunday we´ll go for a family hike. With this I´m taking a big step towards a very active life style.

Diet: Avoiding sugar. A typical day: Breakfast - two eggs and a green juice. Lunch - a lot of salat and a little bit of what´s on the menu. Snack - orange juice and a fruit. Second snack - two rice crackers with a topping. Dinner - just one plate.

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

My diary

One of my favorite things in life is my diary. When I get a new, fresh diary, I take quiet time and write one thing down for every single day of the year. I love this moment, when I reevaluate my life and make my plan for the next 12 months better than it was for the past 12 months. This fills me with hope. I recently bought a new diary and I´m excited to start my new program.

Mondays-I take time to clean out one closet or area of my home, this I´ve been doing for a long time but     now I included garden work in my plan. I now have a big garden and this summer it kind of grew wild, next summer I would love to have it neat and tidy, grow flowers and vegetables so I dedicated every Monday from May to September to garden work, now I´ll spend summers outside and tidy up indoors during the colder and darker months.

Tuesdays-I want to either work on my craft projects or my blogging. I´m giving these two elements more     space in my life. Both areas I want to work on and give me pleasure.

Wednesdays-Usually I´ve had one day a week for shopping clothes for the family or something for the          home. I realised I was kind of wasting this day, because I usually ended up not buying anything. Now I have one Wednesday for shopping, the next one for working on my dream-list, one for the soul and spirit and one for the body (this could be making an exercise program for the next month, for example)

Thursdays- This day I will make special time for one of my family members or memories ..... NEW!

Fridays- This day is for beauty and self-care, I´ve planned long baths, pinterest tips, make-up tutorials, hair cuts, home remedies and etc.

Saturdays- Nutrition, I´ve usually dedicated one day to recipes, trying out a new recipe every week but I     liked my sisters idea of focusing on meal planing, making smoothie bags for the freezer, baking healthy snacks to keep, and even soups or casseroles for the freezer. Hopefully this will have some health benefits for me and my family.

Sundays-Extended family and friends.....planing time to nurture the relationships I want to keep.

I´m so excited about my new plan, I feel like I´m giving a lot more time to things I love doing and taking better care of myself in this plan. I give a lot of energy to my children, to keeping our home, clothes and bodies clean, to my work. That´s why I feel it´s important to have a plan to do the things I love, the things that make me happy, if I get an extra hour in the day or two. My diary has so often pushed me to do a little extra in the day, I´m usually exhausted and uninspired after a long day but I do my chores as fast as I can so I can maybe have a little time with my blog (like today), or do my nails, do some knitting or even organize my closet. It has pushed me to play cards with my kids instead of watching TV, going out for a walk when the weather is crap, contacting a friend that was out of my comfort zone and so many other things that have always given me more happiness than just being lazy.

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Easy Cheesy sauce

Whatever cheese you have in the fridge
Whatever stock suits your dish
Milk or cream for the right consistency

Heat gently and stir :)

Wednesday, June 25, 2014


OK, this is supposed to be a positive, grateful blog. But I´m failing big-time. June - be a better wife, not going so well. Weekly theme - beauty, not going so well. I think most men would like their woman  to look good, so technically spending money having your hair done and eyebrows fixed could be a part of being a better wife. I think that is actually the only effort I´ve made this week to be a better wife. The only problem is that I don´t look any better, I had my eyebrows done and I look like Angry bird. I had a haircut, but I don´t have time to blow-dry my hair, I go to the gym to be healthy (secretly hoping thin and sexy) but all I get is a red face and  acing muscles which make all movement painful. The more I try the more exhausted I get. I never seem to get it right...oh how I envy those who make it seem so easy and effortless - like my cake loving sister.

Monday, June 9, 2014

Being creative

I love being creative....I´ve been busy for the last 10 years building a family, building a life. I´m very proud of what I´ve´s perfect. I guess some creativity was needed in that project, maybe even a great deal. What I would really like to work on in years to come is different kind of creativity, drawing, painting, writing, designing and crafts of all kind. I think that is something that would give me a lot of satisfaction. At them moment it mostly gives me frustration, but I figure it´s just because I need more practise. When things slow down a little in my life I will surely dedicate more time to being creative. It´s all a part of my plan of a beautiful life.

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Dreaming of ...... a peace of mind

What I want most of all in this world is being able to forgive the person who poisoned my life. To let go of all bitterness towards the past and control my frustration. A wish for the universe. A project for me.

Monday, April 28, 2014


Sometimes I feel like I never get anything done, I have big to-do lists, ideas everywhere that I would like to accomplish, and I work my ass of everyday.

But I know it isn´t true. I get loads of things done. One idea I´ve had in my head for years and not put into action is to write down my accomplishments. A diary of positives and praises for myself. As much as I love my to-do lists they are endless and as soon as I get something done, it is forgotten. I think this would be a good way to focus on the positives and I´m sure I can find at least one positive thing everyday :)

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Breakfast - here we go again

It´s April again, time to focus on my breakfast because I haven´t quite mastered it yet. I´ve been struggling with having vegetables for breakfast, I just never feel like having vegetables this early in the morning. I love hard-boiled eggs and can very easily have two of them every morning, fruit is ok as well. Now we recently purchased a juicer and I want to try having a juice and two eggs every morning. I think I´ll make the juice the night before. Good luck with this my wonderful new best friend.

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

10 things for a winter-break

My girls are now 7 and 10, it´s winter-break and since "everyone else" is going on a fabulous trip abroad I decided to dedicate a whole week to them, the little guy is at daycare, I took the week off from work, I´m not doing any laundry and no cleaning, I have the car and money to spend and we can do whatever they want.....almost. So here are 10 things that they really wanted to do:

  • Pajama day at home - playing a board game and watching movies
  • Going to the swimming pool
  • Going to a museum
  • Going to a cafĂ©
  • Going for a walk in the city-centre
  • Spending the day at work with their parents
  • Going to Subway
  • Hike a mountain (this was not unanimous)
  • Bake a cake
  • Going skating 
So this is my week. We´ve also had a sleepover, taken the dog for long walks, completed project "hama beads", made some healthy treats and cleaned out their room - 1 black bin bag in the trash, 1 storage box to keep for later and 1 box to sell at mini garage sale this summer, what a relief ........and it´s only Wednesday morning.

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

I am a good person!

I´ve decided that I´m a good person. I´ve decided not to feel guilty. People need to take responsibility  for their words and actions. I think that´s what I do. I wouldn´t expect other people to be nice to me if I was cruel to them. My lovely sister gave me good advice after reading my last post. She told me it was O.K. to take a brake, to leave things as they were for a while. Thank you lil sis, my house feels like my home again. And thank you Jay for your comment, that´s pretty much what our relationship used to be and probably will be again some day. I´m not trying to be hypocritical. I know there is always room for improvement. Plenty of room. I´ll keep on working on it. The picture is your newest family member. Hope you´re happy!

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

To be a good person/parent

Most of all I want to be a good parent, that is my main goal, everything I do is built on this wish. Probably people have different ideas about what being a good parent means and probably even though most people like to be a good parent they sometimes priorities their life differently. I think that to be a good parent you have to be a good person, and that can be hard sometimes. I want to be grateful, thankful, kind, patient, graceful and fill my mind only with happy thoughts. It´s hard I can be frustrated and angry from time to time. It´s human nature. Now I´m fighting a big battle, there is a person in my life that is taking away all my energy, a person that constantly makes me frustrated and angry. I´ve tried to forgive this person many times, it´s hard to forgive harsh words, now I don´t want to forgive anymore. It´s a dilemma, we are not talking at moment and in a way that´s a big relief from the constant negativity but on the other hand I feel guilty, I feel guilty for not trying to patch things up, forgive and forget. I honestly don´t know what to do. Some people say you should stay away from negative, energy-suckers and surround you with people that make you feel good. Others say it´s best to forgive and forget....I can´t do both. As soon as I would make things right, this person would be in my life on a daily basis, in my home, eating with me, watching TV, asking me for endless favors. I can´t be the happy person I want to be for my kids around her and I can´t be the good person I want to be for my kids if I don´t forgive. Her last words to me were "you´re just a crazy bitch".Yes, it´s my mother-in-law.  My goal for January it to be a better person. Help!

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

A recipe for Christmas

600g love and care
300g togetherness
300g giving
300g happy thoughts
2 tbls good food
2 tbls chocolate
1 tsp lights and candles
and a sprinkle of snow

All mixed together and enjoyed over the holidays

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Being creative

December is definitely the month to be creative. I love creativity and creative people. I so wish I could say I am one of them. I love pinterest and etsy and all the possibilities you can find there. My challenge for December is to be creative and document and blog about it at the end of the month or beginning of next. Ideas:
  • Christmas cards
  • Wrapping
  • Decorations
  • Gifts
  • Ginger bread house
Note that my budget is very tight so I will be making most of this from almost nothing, which will require extra creativity on my behalf. 

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Dreaming off....

....nothing important. For the first time in my life I don´t have a dream, because I already have everything I dream off. In a way it´s scary because I have so much to loose. Sometimes I feel guilty because so many suffer in so many ways. But mostly I feel grateful for all that I have and being able to appreciate it. My challenge for November has to be charity, finding ways to give back to the world we live in.

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Take care

My challenge for October is self-care, I´m so grateful to finally have the time to practice self-care. My treat for today is writing this blog-post, my treat yesterday was watching one of my favorite TV-shows in the middle of the day, I´ve bought myself new clothes, I´ve wined and dined with my husband, I´ve traveled, I´ve read and it´s only the 16th.
This challenge has  made me wonder what it is that I really like doing. I try to eat healthy because that makes me feel good, I try to exercise and walk a lot because that makes me feel good, I keep the house tidy, clean, do the laundry and cook because that makes me feel good, I take care of my children and give them my love and time because that makes me feel good. Everyday I try to be a good person and do all the things I expect of myself. I keep a diary for extra things I want to accomplish because that makes me feel good, like yesterday I spent a lot of time tidying my girls room, throwing away and putting in storage, today my plan is to gather all the leaves that have fallen in the garden with the "help" of my two year old son. All those things make me feel good but I don´t feel like I´m treating myself.
Traveling, dining-out, shopping are not things I can afford everyday.....but it´s a big treat when I get to do those things
Chocolate is one of my favorite and most common treat
Movies and favorite TV-shows
Time for myself, reading, blogging
Sharing a bottle of wine with my husband.
I´v already x´d all those things in October, so now I have to think hard for the rest of the month because unlike my healthy habits, listed above, treats become a problem if repeated too often.

Wednesday, September 25, 2013


My new diet plan is going better than I dared to hope. The weight is coming off and the two days that were supposed to be my " fasting" days are not difficult at all. Here is my typical Wednesday:

2 hand fulls of spinach
a small piece of ginger
a generous squeeze of lemon juice
All mixed up in the blender

1 banana
5-10 leaves of mint
All mixed up in the blender

Early dinner:
1tablespoon peanut butter
1tablespoon coconut
1 tablespoon cocoa
1 banana
3 dates
ice cubes
All mixed up in the blender

Monday, September 9, 2013

Looking back

Last year my goal for September was reducing sugar. Today I´ve discovered new ways of reducing sugar and have many sugar-free days without any struggle. This summer I started to follow the low-carb lifestyle. I lost 5kg, which have stayed off but now I´ve stopped loosing weight and I feel that even though I´m not eating carbs, I´m not eating healthy. Recently I saw a program about fasting....claiming that if you fast (eat one meal 400-500 calories) two days a week and whatever the rest of the week you dramatically increase your health and are more likely to live longer and loose weight. The next day I tried "fasting" all excited about all that I could eat for the other 5 days of the week. It was sooooo hard, I was in such a bad mood, irritated and dinner  time I gave up. Now I´m going to experiment with mixing those juicing monday and wednesday (instead of eating just one regular meal) Low-carb -  high-fat on Tuesday and Thursday and whatever I want for the rest of the week. Hopefully this will give me great results and I will then go on and write a book about the subject and become a multi-millionaire as the woman who found the answer to the biggest problem in the western world......and you can say "I knew her when this was just an idea" :)

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

I´m back.....maybe

It´s been over 9 months. Working, blogging and having a life wasn´t going so well for me. I still feel I don´t have any spare time, even though I stopped working two months ago. No promises....we´ll see how it goes. Not sure I have much to say, trying to find my path in life, uninspired, confused. Destiny has been good to me this year....I now have everything I ever wanted and more. Maybe it´s greedy but now I feel like I need to achieve something, be somebody, I´m ready to work on it, I´m ready to fight......I just don´t know which way to go. I´m restless and afraid that someday I´ll look back and think "oh why didn´t you just relax and enjoy it - you had it all." Blogging helped me before....maybe it will again :)

Monday, October 15, 2012

It works!

Well maybe it´s too soon to say and maybe the fact that I didn´t go to work today helped but writing down my actions and habits seems to be working for me. I had a super healthy day, with green juices, a long walk, a nap with my little man, some me-time, cleaning and my to-do list. A very good day! Just wanted to let you know!

Sunday, October 14, 2012

October challenge - keep a diary

All the great habits I was trying to build up over the past months have faded away since I started working again after my maternity leave. How is it possible to live a healthy balanced life with three children and a almost full-time job. I´m spiraling downwards in a circle of unhealthy eating and a lack of energy and exercise. Today I had enough, I went to the store and bought a notebook, a book to write down my habits and feelings each night before going to bed -  I´ll look for solutions and take action. Self-therapy. See it´s already working - I´m blogging again.

Monday, September 10, 2012

Back to business

 Firstly I just have to mention how grateful I am for my blog post on late summer parenting - we actually managed to get somethings on the list done and I think it was just the extra push I needed to step out of my every-day and make a special-day. Above are some snapshots from two extra special days. I even managed to make some jam from my berry-picking. So proud of my beautiful jam. First time for me but definitely not the last time - it was so easy. I guess I always thought there was more too it than that

We are getting back to the routine over here, I´ve spent the last year on a maternity leave and now it´s back to work, it´s heartbreaking to leave my youngest crying at the nursery and my school girls are coming home in the worst mood. Although I´ve planned everything and have clothes, schoolbags and snacks ready the night before it´s stressful, I wake up before everyone and get myself ready, the kids I wake up an hour before we have to leave the house, still we are always just managing to get there on time. Now there will also be the additional stress of cleaning, cooking and helping the girls with their homework....after work. I can´t help to wonder why it has to be this way, all this stress that comes with modern life, it feels so wrong. I´m fighting to keep it simple but it kind of feels like out of my control. On the upside I´m grateful that I´ve manged to get some areas of my life under control, waking up early and not watching TV will hopefully help me to cope and give me at least some spare time. One tired mama!

Monday, September 3, 2012

September challenge - Reduce my sugar intake

Well to be honest my goal was to eliminate added sugar from my diet, but since I´ve cheated now every day this month and since I don´t like to make promises I can not keep, I will go with reducing sugar. I know the biggest battle is in my mind and I´ve fought this one many times before. Ideally I don´t want to be fighting battles, it´s so negative and destructive but with the lack of routine during the summer months I´ve piled on the pounds and drastic measures are needed. I´m wondering how to do it the right way, I read a blog post some days ago and now I´ve forgotten where....but it was about reaching for the sweetness in life when craving sweetness in your mouth, these words stuck with me, I don´t know how effective they are when I loose my mind in search of sweetness and all is forgotten but since I´m experimenting with mediation I thought this would be a good mantra for the month.

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Love - family

Earlier this month I wrote a post about love and promised myself to write more about the things I love.

Family - now this is what I love most of all, not only my husband and children but also my extended family, people that have passed away are just as real in my heart as those who are living, distance or time doesn´t weaken my love if the bond was ever there nothing will change that. I think before I just took people for granted, it´s only recently I ´ve started to really appreciate how special it is to have people in your life that you love. I´ll be a very loving old woman if my love continues to grow this way.

Thursday, August 16, 2012

10 ideas for late summer parenting

I don´t know about you but I´ve kind of lost my summer enthusiasm. In spring I´m always so happy to greet the sun and warmer days, I use every opportunity to be outside. We´ve had a great summer and now my mind is on going back to work and the children starting school and day-care. I´ve kind of forgot to make the most of each day so I put together a list of activity to make those last days of summer extra special. I´ve always believed that the best thing I could give my children was my time and attention (and was glad to read this post that made me more confident in my parenting methods).

1. Overnight camping - we haven´t been camping at all this summer and this weekend probably is the last chance we have this year, fortunately the weather forecast is perfect and although we have a busy weekend planned we can squeeze in an overnight camping trip to a wonderful place not to far away. Thank you Jacquie for inspiring me. I´m super excited and can´t wait to tell the girls, they will be thrilled. Nothing gives the family quality-time like camping.
2. Food-gathering - my husband is a professional chef and we love food ( too much). Although we are far from being self-sufficient I find the idea very appealing. I would love to work on my self-sufficiency in the future but for now ....small steps...we will make do with our windowsill basil and hopefully a family trip picking berries, maybe mushrooms (although I´m scared of picking the wrong ones) and fishing in a local lake. I don´t expect bringing home tons of goods but hopefully we´ll have a good time.
3. Jumble sale - now this is something my older daughter came up with last winter and I think it´s time I help her to make it happen, she and her friends will collect things from friends and family and clean out their closets as well. Then they will try to sell it in front of our local grocery store and try to sell it, the money they make from this will be given to charity and they can get their pictures in the local paper
4. Charity - I want to do more charity work and do more for my community - I would love to find something that I could involve my girls in so that we can do good things together.
5. Bake something delicious - for those rainy days this is a sure hit, the more hands on I let them be the happier they are, just need to take a couple of chill-pills before hand to make sure I don´t freak out about the mess or worry too much about the end result... for irresistible recipes click here.
6. Go for a visit - now this is something I need to work on, time flies by and everyone is busy. As grown-ups we don´t necessarily realize how long it´s been since last time, quality time with extended family and friends can also be an invaluable part of their childhood and give them new dimensions and outlook on life.
7. Go to the beach - you can hardly go wrong with a visit to the beach, there is always something interesting by the sea even if the weather is not to great, a lake or even a small river can also do the trick. My favorite decorations at home were hand-picked by my girls by a river and at the beach. One is a bowl full of stones in different colors, shapes and textures and the other one is a vase with beautiful extra large straws. Not only do those item look great but they come with a memory and a sense of pride. Who knows what we´ll find on our next visit.
8. Late-night walk - I´m not a spontaneous person and my life is pretty much in a routine, so when you brake up the routine and do something different it becomes extra special. Maybe a late-night walk is not so adventurous for some families (and by late-night I´m talking about after dinner) but for my family it is.
9. Collect leaves - this activity will give us at least two days of fun. First to pick the leaves and press them. Later to make something beautiful out of them.
10. Climb a "mountain" - we´ve done this a few times and should have done more - it´s so much fun. Our mountains are actually more like hills or mountain sides but after all we are only beginners. The joy at the top is real and that´s what counts, right?

I think this list represents many of the things I would love to give my children - togetherness, love of the outdoors, respect for nature, care for others.....I see this in hindsight and I´m pleasantly surprised....yet again blogging is helping me to figure out more about be honest this list is more the parent I would like to be than the parent I am today but if I hadn´t sat down to write this post my clear ideas would have remained only a vague feeling. Hopefully I can put my ideas in action.

Monday, August 13, 2012

Less is more

It´s time to get out the boxes and get rid of some stuff that is just getting in my way - since I can´t get a bigger house just yet, it´s time to simplify my life - ouch it will be tough. Hopefully I can give something away to people who need it - I think it´s time I pay it forward - people have been giving me children's clothes, toys, furniture and other things for years and I´m so grateful for that.

Sunday, August 12, 2012


My early morning challenge is not going so well - for the first days of the month we had a house guest so I stayed in bed as long as I could not to disturb him, the other days our baby boy wakes up as I try to sneak out of the room so I go back to bed with him - am I finding excuses to be lazy? One morning I´ve managed to complete my challenge, it was kind of strange, I was tired and I tried to meditate which is something I would like to do but it felt awkward because I don´t really know what I´m doing so I was very self-conscious. After my meditation I go into the kitchen to have a glass of water - I look out the window and see a man searching for empty bottles and cans to sell. So sad. I know there is a lot of sadness and suffering in this world so much that we shield ourselves by just trying not to think about it. Maybe I can make this person happy for a moment if I leave out my bag of empty bottles and cans for him that is only getting in my way in my tiny laundry-room. I know it´s not much - it´s a small step - acting on my compassion instead of turning a blind eye.

Thursday, August 9, 2012


Now there is something easier said than done! This picture represents what it must look like to master oneself. I think possibly all my problems would be solved if I could manage that.  I´m grateful I´ve come to realize this - now all I have to do is actively work on my self-discipline and maybe we´ll be seeing some progress soon :)

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Proud to present....

Heehaw I actually managed to do something creative today and actually finish it.  I did the big one a while a go and added the baby pillow today - I know it´s super easy but I´m happy with the outcome.  I also love when I manage to create something for free - the fabric is old curtains and the crochet is something my mum must have made half a century ago. Well done me!

Monday, August 6, 2012

You are what you love!

My daughter came home from school one day telling me that it wasn´t possible to love food or things, you could only love people. I´ve been thinking about love lately. I want to love more, talk more about the things I love, concentrate on the things I love, love more and not less. Why constrain love, love everything, love the moment, love a flower, love a feeling, love chocolate, love yourself, love your shoes, learn to give love and learn to receive love. If there is anything in this world that shouldn´t be limited it´s love.

I realized the other day that I love melancholy things, movies, books, blogs, photographs and music - if you manage to stir up some deep emotions you´ve got me. I´ve been wondering why that is - does that make me a sad or a boring person? I guess I find it beautiful, meaningful, true.

Hope to blog more about the things I love!

Thursday, August 2, 2012

Early mornings

A little step may be the beginning of a great journey

A new month a new challenge. I want to start waking up at 6 o´clock in the mornings. I want to get some quiet quality time with myself before everyone else wakes up. I can see myself using this time to meditate and practice yoga. I´ve been longing for this challenge for some time now, but with the new baby in the house I felt the sensible thing to do was to get as much sleep as possible. He´s now sleeping through the night so I´m looking forward to this challenge. The TV free nights have been a relief for me, freedom, free from mindless, empty, cheap entertainment which I still indulge in once in a while. I look forward to my TV nights but now I´m in control. I´m not quite sure what happened to the extra time this was supposed to bring me but it´s summer holiday and everything is upside down, the kids are going to bed later and we´ve been travelling. I think my girls probably gained the most from that challenge, I´m no longer irritated when they steel my attention from the TV,  I´m no longer hurrying up their bedtime routine in order to finish before my show starts. I have the time for them, I can listen, I can read for them, we play cards together. Now I can´t see how I could have it any other way.

Thursday, July 5, 2012

TV free nights

My challenge for this month is to watch less TV and  spend my evenings differently. So Monday - Tuesday - Wednesday and Thursday will be TV free for me.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012


My sister´s theme of the week is sewing, I didn´t really have a planned theme this week but when she asked I realized that there definitely is a theme over here this week - working with yarn - every member of the family - except the dad - is working with yarn. I´m knitting and crocheting (started a new and very exciting project yesterday). My 7 year old is finger-knitting like crazy, yesterday I tried to teach her how to knit, she got the hang of it but was a bit disappointed how difficult it was (she had already planed about a dozen items she was going to knit this summer), she´s also braiding friendship bracelets and my 5 year old learned how to braid as well this week and is proudly wearing her own design and make. My 8 month old is taking advantage of all this yarn laying about around the house and plays with it like a little kitten - result I spend more time untangling yarn than actually making anything. We are all learning and improving our skills, making useful and not so useful things. It´s amazing what you can to with a piece of string.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

My girls rooms

I love looking at beautiful pictures of beautiful homes, I love dreaming of a beautiful home, I even love my home most of the time. In a way it represents who I am.
Even though usually I just want to close the doors to my girls rooms and forget about the mess, when I´ve tidied up a bit I love their rooms most of all - not because they are incredibly stylish but because they represent them, they change every day depending on what they are up to and what they are thinking, their art and craft everywhere, little projects and games they´ve been playing, books they are reading, they are the bosses of their rooms (almost). I know one day I´ll miss all that mess.

Sunday, June 3, 2012

June challenge

I really love my challenges for the month, I find they are really working, I find it comforting to see I´m making progress, taking one step at a time and taking the time I need to focus on each step - putting other imperfections aside and thinking "I´ll deal with that later". I´ve been blogging less and reading more blogs lately. My morning walks have given me time to ponder and wonder and this months challenge I´ve been thinking about for some days now. It all started with this post, well of course these thoughts have been circling in my head for years but this post inspired me to make it my monthly challenge. I want to be a better wife - marriage is maybe the most important relationship I´ll have, our relationship will affect our children in more ways than I can imagine. Mostly I need to be more respectful, more appreciative and more supporting, sometimes that will mean biting my tongue, turning my head and counting to 10 but mostly I think it will mean reminding myself everyday why he deserves those things because he does.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

What I learned last night

Before I had my first child I thought I knew everything about parenting. "Be firm but friendly - say what you mean and mean what you say" Easy! It took about two year for my daughter to proof me´s not easy! She´s a stubborn fighter - actually she´s a very well behaved, responsible, caring little girl with a good heart and a strong sense of fairness. For her it´s not fair that I´m the boss - everything has to be negotiated until she´s is comfortable with it. She has to understand all the rules and if they make sense she will follow them and not let you down. She´s very mature and I usually talk to her like a grown-up. Basically she turned everything I thought I knew about parenting upside down and I adjusted to her way. My younger daughter has a completely different personality and yesterday I attended course at the local school with a little introduction to "PMT - Parent Management Training" because she will be starting school this fall. As I was sitting there I realized that everything I thought I once knew would apply to her, she needs the framework, the rules and the encouragement. What worked for her sister doesn´t work so well for her so I was feeling lost and confused in my methods always trying to apply the same for both. I´m relieved because I feel like I know what to do now. I´m hoping for a happier and more relaxed atmosphere at home, I´m more confident I can give her what she needs. I wonder how many years it will take me to figure out how to manage my son.

Monday, May 21, 2012

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Knitting needle roll

See tutorial
I´ve decided on my next sewing project!

Monday, May 7, 2012

Sitting on a bench

Inspired by my sister´s latest blogpost I decided to sit down on a bench on my morning-walk. I gave myself the luxury of going slowly, breathing deeply and being present....or at least that was my intention. Today was yet another beautiful day, the warmest so far this year. I walked my usual route by the sea where there is a new and comfortable path with benches facing the sea at regular intervals. I never sit down on them though, my girls often ask me to sit down but I usually wait while they have a little sit-down and then rush them to keep going. Well today was a perfect day to sit on a bench - but I couldn´t do it. I don´t think I lasted two minutes....I felt extremely uncomfortable, I was looking around to check if anyone was coming, if anyone would see me and I couldn´t relax at all. It just felt so wrong.  Now this experiment just made my head spin with all kinds of thoughts. "What is wrong with me? What is wrong with society? People, connection, being present, solitude, letting go, obesity,  tension, mood swings, my relationships" and my thoughts were spiraling all the way back home. Each thought with a life of it´s own - I feel like I´m cleaning the basement of my life, where I´ve been throwing things down for years and years without a thought - maybe things are just best kept down there, maybe I shouldn´t be getting my hands dirty trying to sort out this mess, maybe it just supposed to be messy, everybody needs a place for their mess, maybe that´s just life.........still somehow I belief  I´m on the right track. Hopefully one day I will be comfortable enough to sit on a bench by myself with no distractions and face the world.

Monday, April 30, 2012

Morning walks

It´s time for a new monthly challenge, this time the challenge came to me. I  don´t even know if  I can call it a challenge because after taking care of my water-levels and having a healthy breakfast each morning this is just something I needed to do. It wasn´t planed and I didn´t see it coming. I even was so excited about this one I took a head start and have been taking morning walks for some days now. I´ve been meaning to exercise everyday but somehow everyday just turns into three times a week, two, once or like lately not at all. My morning walks will be an addition to my exercise plan. At the moment I have to force myself to go to the gym but this is coming to me naturally and freely and I´m welcoming morning walks into my life.

Sunday, April 29, 2012


Next month I´ll turn 35. If life comes in 7 years chapters I´ll be entering a new chapter now. I just realized this couple of days ago and the idea intrigues me. The last 7 years have been all about bearing children, nursing, raising and nesting. Maybe the next 7 years will be more about me, at least that´s the vibe I´m feeling now. Self-discovering, learning, re-evaluating and finding my core. One thing I really want to do is to be more creative, I´ve always been inspired by creative people but never put in the time or energy I need to get somewhere with my creative work. I´ve kind of given up on everything I´ve tried before I got good at it. I´m impatient and just like doing things I´m good at. Yesterday I had some time to check out blogs and found a circle of bloggers participating in a week long challenge of spending one hour a day sowing children´s clothing - hosted by this blogger. I was inspired and so excited about all the cool kid´s clothing they were making. That´s something I would love to be able to do.........among too many other things. What ever will be will be - but I´m excited to enter into this new chapter of my life and see where it will take me.

Friday, April 27, 2012


Borrowed from this blog
I went for a walk this morning, before checking my mail and blog, before the housework, before reading the newspapers. I think this is something I should do every morning. Not only is it a good exercise but also it gave me a clear head and a fresh perspective for the day. I heard on the radio the other day that a new study showed that people who do their exercise by the sea feel happier than people who walk/bike/run etc. outside and not by the sea. It makes sense and lucky for me the sea is just 5 minutes away from my house. How can I not be grateful. Well this morning "destiny" lead me in the other direction. What I really wanted to share was my morning thought, when I´m walking it´s like all the thoughts in my head are swept away and I´m left with one. This morning it was "balance" . The key to well-being, ying&yang, a wisdom older than mankind (almost). And I felt like I was discovering it all by myself, of course that´s what I´m looking for, that´s where I want to be. For years I´ve been bothered by my lack of need to succeed, I´m pulled towards the average, I´m not willing to put in the effort to "be somebody". And today I discovered why: I´m finding my balance. Balance is beautiful, balance is what makes life beautiful. Like before, balance is something you can apply to every aspect of your life to make things right.

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Everything is as it should be

Yet again I am borrowing my sisters wise words . What a relieving thought. Just think for a second that everything is just the way it was meant to be. All to often I find myself wound up trying to change my situation or myself or the people around me. Mostly I try to change my husband, maybe because I feel responsible for choosing him as my partner, family is just can not get a new sister and you don´t pick out your mother. Your partner is the only family member you choose. I realize now I´ve been putting to much pressure on him to be perfect to justify my decision. Maybe there is a reason I´m realizing this now - not sooner or later. I feel a weight lifted off my shoulders. I can apply this thought to so many areas of my life and feel my stress fade away.

Don´t get me will go on and I´m not of to la la land.

Maybe the key is in this quote that has helped millions:
"Mother—God grant me the serenity to accept things I cannot change, courage to change things I can, and wisdom to know the difference."

Friday, April 20, 2012

Pay attention to what you pay attention to!

This really made me think the first time I heard it some years ago, it still does. It´s a thought I wanted to include on my blog because I´m finding that blogging is a great way to do that. To know oneself is more difficult than I thought, maybe because we are always changing. I´m constantly trying to read the people around me thinking I will be a better mother if I understand my children, better wife if I know my husbands every thought, a better friend if I can put myself in their shoes. I don´t know. I do know I would really like to get to know myself better.

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Blue skies

Yesterday was a beautiful day, the sky was blue and the sun was shining. I went for a long walk with my little man and picked up my two girls from school on the way back.  Blue skies are like an instant happiness, fill you with energy, hope and believe. It looks like we´ll be seeing some blue skies again today.

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Don´t worry - be happy!

So easy to say and something we´ve all heard before. I was reminded of this today on this blog and I just felt I needed to put that thought on my blog to keep reminding me. To be happy is probably the greatest gift we can give ourselves and our loved ones. My worries will always be a part of my life, it´s a big part of being a mother and in fact it has sort of become my role in life to worry about everything. Listen to me I´m already worrying about what will happen if I stop worrying. I guess the key is not to burden myself or others with my worries, put happy first and worry second. Now that´s a gift I would really like to give my family.

Monday, April 16, 2012

This is how I feel today.

70% chocolate
In a response to my sisters post I thought long and hard what kind of image could represent how I´m feeling today. You can read into it what you want.